tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124683842011-07-15T12:54:05.904+08:00A place for hanging out.Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.comBlogger181100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1147012392787286352006-05-07T22:25:00.000+08:002006-05-07T22:33:12.800+08:00I feel so left behind...<br />I have competition that I think has the upper hand. I dont know what is my standings and im expecting it to be really low in a way.<br />I dont say anything and when im around her I dont show her my true feelings.<br />I feel like that it will be a start of something very painful that i will have to endure again.<br />If there is one wish or prayer that I need answering, that would be that if (Madz) my dreamgirl, decides to whom she wants to be with, I only hope that she doesnt regret it in any way, bec i will be extremely hurt if she shed tears or be hurt by the decision that she will make.<br /><br />My hopes for myself winning in this race is slim, and almost gone.<br />But the measures of my love for her will always remain the same, <br />as I said to her in a text message, I will love her for the rest of my life.<br />That is one thing I intend on showing even if i dont get anything in return.<br />GOD BLESS is all i can say, i hope she knows that i mean the best for her.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-114701239278728635?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1146314396058943572006-04-29T20:31:00.000+08:002006-04-29T20:39:56.183+08:00It seems so fresh when we burried my mother..<br />Now this saturday of april 29 2006, i recieved grim news of my grandfathers passing.<br />And now im left again with the phobia of being left behind by people i love.<br />It seems his strong will didnt last his ailing body. <br />It saddens me that such a thing happened again, when i am still mourning my mothers death.<br />Im really sad by the way things are.<br />I can feel my fathers sadness as he again failed to save another member of his family.<br />I was talking to him on the phone just a while ago... And he was shocked and sad about the whole thing, it is his father after all. <br />this leaves me in a deep thought. a thought that will make me question life.<br />at this point on, im relying on my alter ego to keep me going. I guess im weak after all.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-114631439605894357?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1144469444156050192006-04-08T12:04:00.000+08:002006-04-08T12:10:44.170+08:00It has been months since i last posted here.<br />My journal stopped as my life stopped.<br /><br />I was mourning the death of four people that has roles in my life.<br />I lost every bit of faith in every bit of belief that i have in my bones.<br /><br />Its tough! I have to admit that.<br />But what happened, happened for a reason. <br />And no matter how much i protest, I can never bring them back.<br /><br />Time has changed since Jan 05, 2006.<br />I also lost my brother but alas i didnt.<br /><br />phew!<br /><br />Anyway Im glad to report that im back on track with new and repaired goals to mind.<br />Life must go on.<br />And faith must be fortified.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-114446944415605019?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1133277980928780212005-11-29T23:21:00.000+08:002005-11-29T23:26:21.033+08:00I wanna cry but i have to be strong.<br />My mom... is in the hospital and she is in a tight spot.<br />she has T.B. and pneumonia....<br />she has to undergo a procedure that requires her to be penetrated with a rubber tube in her chest are in order to remove the fluids in her lungs... but she is to weak...<br />I pray to GOD that she gains that strength.. I wanna be by her side as always when she is in a tight spot. bec. among my brothers and i.. i am the one who has that much patience and strength to make our mom well again. GOD always stands beside me. Im crying coz im in alot of tension. im afraid. help me please pray for her.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-113327798092878021?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1132925639060850562005-11-25T21:18:00.000+08:002005-11-25T21:33:59.073+08:00Its destiny!<br /><br />I was passing by when I heard you call.<br />The moment was so perfect when u smiled.<br />You touch me like no one else before.<br />You showed me care that i never had.<br />The moment was captured on a single glance, where you'll ask...<br />It's in my heart baby!<br /><br />Everything i shared and said is genuine,<br />You wont see another man like me.<br />I differ because i care so much.<br />Look around you, and you will know why.<br /><br />Baby I wanna touch your face. I wanna tell you i my own voice with my grace.<br />That you mean the world to me. And that every single connecting breath i have is because of you.<br /><br />I promised you the promises because it is just.<br />It gives me something to hope for.<br />You gave me strength when i was ready to die.<br />You pulled me to your sweet embrace when i was cold.<br /><br />You saw me cry when i was in tears,<br />you say me look you in the eye.<br />And that everything is meant with sincerity, <br />My boo it comes from my heart.<br /><br />I am proud to love you wherever you may be.<br />I can withstand the loneliness when i want your touch.<br />All i can do is hope for the day.<br />We will meet someday somehow.<br />And that my promise wil not be stained...<br />It will happen one way or the other.<br /><br /><img src="http://www.maggiesgarden.com/discus/messages/67/389.jpg" width="300" height="300" alt="For My Snowflakes"><br /><br />I want to see you touch some snowflakes.<br />I want to stare at you when you are smiling,<br />afterwards I will grab you and hug you..<br />And tell you the sweetest I LOVE YOU.<br />there will never be any goodbyes... its only gonna be see you l8ter for us..<br />for when i part i will still find you... you are the love of this life i carry.<br />I LOVE YOU SNOWFLAKES (IZHURA).<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-113292563906085056?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1128023765222827062005-09-30T03:25:00.000+08:002005-09-30T03:58:13.270+08:00Just as I was going to step down and start a new path...<br />Something shined in front of my face...<br />A light... from the sky...<br />I asked why is it so refreshing to see this light...<br />Then my someone holds my hand...<br />she says "Hey. I told you it was for you!"<br />Then I cried...<br />It was her... the missing piece that I seek but cant yet have.<br />I embrace her as she said... If it is meant to be... you will see.<br />Then the fog takes her image slowly as I drift back to consciousness...<br />-----<br />I take paused and understand this message in the form of a dream...<br />-----<br />Before I opened my shop.. i was flipping the channel... then I suddenly stopped in a korean channel.. /ARIRANG/ .. there playing was our theme song.. the music video unconditional love...<br />-----<br />I just fell to tears as I hug the CD that she gave to me... its been two years since I held her hands.. felt her kiss.. <br />-----<br />Im slowly fading... my essence is diminishing... my purpose is slowly being accomplished... and so my lifeforce slowly slipts away to the vast void of being empty... <br />-----<br />too many offers... but no genuine love... <br />-----<br />I was walking to buy food for my lunch..<br />As i was headed back to my shop... I gazed up.. <br />it was a beautiful sky... but when i looked down.. i saw the same troubled world..<br />-----<br />I wish I will still have the strength to witness myself being incumbered with the majestic gift of GOD.. and that is love...<br />-----<br />If so not... then let this be my final memoirs to why I wrote a sad post this 4th week of september.<br />-----<br /><br /><img src="http://art.softshape.com/forvladstudio/files/wallpapers/vladstudio_heartofolkhon_1024x768.jpg" width="400" height="300" alt="I wish I could be there.. and so i could just sit"></img><br />I wish I could be in the picture...<br />----<br />Imagine me.. sitting in the smooth grass and gazing at what GOD created... and someone very precious to me walks towards me and sits by my side...<br />----<br />I guess that will never be... for my purpose is always to sacrifice...<br />GOD said to me in a dream... "everything that you sacrifice will make a dark hole fill up with light... so dont despair when you feel so left behind... because the more you make someone happy... the more your spirit shines.."<br />----<br />Im trying to understand that upto now.. felt confused by it... (GOD was a tree in that dream... his leaves where so amazingly beautiful... and his roots felt like pillows as I lie down in his feet..<br />----<br /><br />----<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-112802376522282706?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1126247207362809282005-09-09T14:23:00.000+08:002005-09-09T14:26:47.366+08:00Yep Yep.... After 2 cruel months of preparations, My very own internet cafe is now in business.... wooot... Now i can proceed to inevitable... the road to success... eventually I will be able to help those in need but first my family... Thank GOD for this.. IloveFATHERGOD! Hes the best!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-112624720736280928?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1120996830584234812005-07-10T19:57:00.000+08:002005-07-10T20:04:52.396+08:00Job Hunting.. hehe! I resigned my post! hihi! I wasnt content with my current work so I decided to resign and hunt for jobs... recently i have been accepted by two out of three companies in makati but freaky makati... i cant work there... first... the parking fee is to damn high... plus its too far from where I live... hihihi...<br /><a href="http://photos.friendster.com/photos/15/03/4083051/1322866789867l.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px;" src="http://photos.friendster.com/photos/15/03/4083051/1322866789867l.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />To those in FCF boards... Im sorry chette for not dropping by lately.. Ive been very busy... dont worry i will once i get settled in...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-112099683058423481?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1117155804389488972005-05-27T08:52:00.000+08:002005-05-27T09:11:06.106+08:00yep... my paradise like place is now over... im moving to a new place.... somewhere that i feel im more connected to my roots... it sucks, because instead of heading up, im going down... i think im gonna have a rough year this 05... there is no unity in my family, my heart is acting up crazy, im feeling alot of tension, and my GODsWILL wont even speak with me.... I dont know... just not my day... hope GOD gives me strength... oh.. yeah!! I've been praying alot for my friend "redneck: Jay-ar", yesterday we chat and he just shared his hardships that his family faces, he told me that he is surviving but dont know for how long, he also told me that maybe in the coming days, his family may sleep in the streets, Im affected by this coz he is a true friend of mine, his skills and intelligence are beyond normal, truly we are of the same feather, but both of us have problems that need deep attention... All I can do for him as a friend is to pray for him... and as for myself, I guess to work twice as hard....<br /><br />I hope and pray that we get through this trial... GOD will help us.... I know of it..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111715580438948897?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1116914043668165562005-05-24T13:35:00.000+08:002005-05-24T13:54:03.673+08:00Im so happy... she was under my nose the whole time I was searching...<br />It was her who made me laugh and smile with a glance the same time...<br />It was her who gave me the urge to see whats beyond...<br />It was her who made me dream about growing old with someone beside...<br />It was her who gave me faith that i should've seen before...<br /><br />How I long for her... How I want to see her so often.. Im feeling butterflies inside m stomach.. Im feeling funny but tears flow out my eyes...<br />I feel as if a slow-mo effect befell upon us when I took her home one time..<br /><br />I begin to cherish every breath that I take, I begin to fear the enevitable truth of dying... but only the part of leaving her behind..<br /><br />Why do tears and constricted emotions fills me when I see her so incomplete? How come I yearn for more of her to succeed because I just simply do.<br />I think GOD binds my soul to her.<br />For so long we have been seperated but we are reunited again.<br />God entitles me with a miracle to prepare me for a bigger one...<br />She has me... <br />I wish to ask her to grab me, take me, and make me hers forever until the day I die..<br />Feeling like this is so free and comforting, I feel as my life is complete...<br />For that I thank with grateful and everlasting gratitude the Father that made this possible and that is GOD..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111691404366816556?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1116556647872360322005-05-20T10:32:00.000+08:002005-05-20T10:37:27.876+08:00yep yep.... about a month ago I bought this star wars game and i just finished it wednesday... wew... im glad i was able to accomplish all light side task.. wew... the hard part was the puzzle with my droid comapanion, took me a day to figure it out..<br /><br />Whatz... next to conquer!!! hmmmmm.... i think im gonna try warcraft WOW(world of warcraft)... im gonna make my own private server as i did with ragnarok.. hihi..<br /><br />peace out!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111655664787236032?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1116465407617571762005-05-19T09:05:00.000+08:002005-05-19T09:16:47.620+08:00oh my goodness!<br />Tuesday... it rained alot that day... furious winds and thunder w/lightning made a concierto that day, I was playing around with pinnacle then all of a sudden a black out happened, it was all black in my unit as i didnt have any candles or emergency lights... so i just jammed with my bed looking outside the pool area when all of a sudden this bright line struck the middle of the pool! i was surprised the water turned to green... amazing sight i said... and this boom of a sound followed.. damn it was loud and frightening.... i was relieved that the glasses didnt shatter ... what a day... that day i missed my fave show smallville coz there was no signal from the network.. waaaaahhh.. i wonder what happened?! anyone update me please..... what happened?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111646540761757176?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1116231888613205652005-05-16T16:17:00.000+08:002005-05-16T16:24:48.616+08:00My friends since HS are here... one of em is staying with me... as you all should know i live alone in a studio type condo unit...<br /><br />Anyways, I was feelin down but a blessing from god gave me alot the ff week, and still more to come this month.. <br />I have been addicted with the pool just outside my unit, i swim twice a day one at night and one at day... i love the feeling of water, it feels therapeutic...<br />Anyways its cool to swim been meeting alot of people... sharing the word of G!<br />then some fun stuff... <br /><br />last night we had a swim party, it was solemn but fun... hihi...<br />Until these physical therapists joined us in the pool, then all hell broke lose... waaahhhh... it was fun, but still Im not that type of guy, so i just swam a couple of laps, then I retired for the night, my est friend che was already asleep alongside her BF eric, and I just dozed of watching MTV at 4 in the morning! wew!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111623188861320565?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1115170096818659722005-05-04T09:19:00.000+08:002005-05-04T09:28:16.833+08:00Im very tired now, I only got 3 hours of sleep... too much deadlines and responsibilities... whew.. I got diagnosed with cardio myopathy.. due to stress, so next week ill be consulting with a cadiologist for further medications...<br /><br />I feel bad coz I just installed a sleek capture card and Im Mastering<br />My Video Editing skill... Im using three types of software but I want Pinnacle Studio..<br /><br />so unfortunate of me to have this ailment... I cant afford to die yet...<br /><br />If you want to avoid this too, coz every stressed out person is prone to this..<br />read this... <a href="http://www.clevelandclinic.org/heartcenter/pub/guide/disease/hcm/#whatis">Read here</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111517009681865972?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1114680824943221212005-04-28T17:18:00.000+08:002005-04-28T18:17:14.970+08:00Am I bored or what....<br /><br />Its very stressful here... I just wanna get out of here and drive 100km per hour in my car, but abviously this is manila so the fastest speed i can drive is 45km...<br /><br />aaaaaahhhhhhh.....<br /><br />People here in the office are so old that it makes it even more boring..<br />I mean c'mon, the topics they discuss are just so.. well... old!... they're talking bout how much graves cost nowadays.. what the.... i mean dude.. its like they're preparing for the obvious. weeeeekkkk....<br /><br />The only fun I get is when im online or reading a book, but nooooooooooooooo!!<br />They have to ruin that too, they play the stereo, guess whats on?!... it aint even old music, but instead they listen to that old guy in the news as if He was a matinee idol.. how crap-like is that?!<br /><br />waaaaaahhhhh again another day at the office!!!!...<br /><br />When I took a break 2 hrs. ago, this fella came to me and ask me where this old building he was looking for, guess what "this old papita came out, as if she had a old-radar on her, and to the guys rescue, she knew the place.. woohoo for him.. <br />Apparently this incident was not made up just for laughs, its true, i mean how sick do you think I am, Im just a regular guy with regular company in every damn regular day... sounds old too..<br /><br />but anywho who am I to argue, Im just an overgrown loner in the shack hiding from the rays of the sun like shrek! hihi...<br /><br />Anyone got pie?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111468082494322121?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1114656061643333952005-04-28T10:28:00.000+08:002005-04-28T10:41:01.646+08:00Last night I was playing around with my PC and I just got an idea to edit some photos I took...<br /><hr><br /><center><br /><ul><br /><li>I made myself look like a boy.. how sick am I.. girl is my ex</li><br /><li><img src="http://www.depedmimaropa.org/forum/distort.jpg"></img></li><br /><li>I look like a girl in this one.. But Im not, Im obviously a Man, I look like my MOM here.</li><br /><li><img src="http://www.depedmimaropa.org/forum/girlface.jpg"></img></li><br /><li>I Always wanted to be a clown, a cute one!</li><br /><li><img src="http://www.depedmimaropa.org/forum/mikefacewhite.jpg"></img></li><br /></ul><br /></center><br /><br /><hr><br /><br />I slept at around 2:00 A.M. in the morning... Man oh man! It sucks living alone... but when my friends are around hihihi...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111465606164333395?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1114585247706452282005-04-27T14:41:00.000+08:002005-04-27T15:08:48.296+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/109/5437/640/jose_di_castro_74_2.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #FFFFFF; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/109/5437/400/jose_di_castro_74_2.jpg'></a><br />Cooked Crab&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><br /><br /><strong>Crockpot Crab Soup</strong> <br />INGREDIENTS:<br /><br />2 cups crabmeat, flaked and picked<br />2 cups milk<br />2 cups half-and-half<br />3 tablespoons butter<br />2 strips of lemon peel<br />1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg, or to taste<br />salt and pepper<br />2 tablespoons dry sherry<br />1/2 cup saltine crackers<br />PREPARATION:<br /><br />Combine all ingredients except sherry and crushed crackers in slow cooker; stir to blend ingredients. Cover and cook on LOW for 3 to 5 hours. Just before serving, stir in sherry and cracker crumbs to thicken.<br />Makes about 6 to 8 servings. As a variation, add cooked shrimp to this soup about 30 minutes before serving time.<br /><br />--------------------<br /><br />But if you want to realy enjoy the crab... here is a simple but delicious way of preparing a feast of a crab...<br /><br />Ingredients:<br />Onions<br />Garlic<br />Red Hot Pepper<br />Soy Sauce<br />White Vinegar<br />and Crabs (Alive & Kicking....nothing beats a fresh catch)<br /><br />Instructions:<br />1. Crabs - Just boil them up for 15 to 20 mins..<br />2. Sauce - Chop everything (Onions, Garlic, Red Hot Pepper), then in a bowl add them up then pour in a cup of vinegar and soysauce together, let it blend for 4 mins.. and wallllaaah.. you have sauce...<br />(Best Serve with rice)<br />--------Have you eaten a lobster? thats how you eat a crab with your bare hands.---<br />Enjoy your meal...<br /><br /><marquee>Hmmmmmmmm makes my mouth water....</marquee><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111458524770645228?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12468384.post-1114575942417526312005-04-27T12:20:00.000+08:002005-04-27T12:25:42.416+08:00<span style="font-family:georgia;">Wazzup... my new blogsite.. hihii... feel free to wander around..</span><br /><br />ooohh... visit this site too.. <a href="http://www.blessingsofgod.com">http://www.blessingsofgod.com</a><br />its a great site...<br /><marquee>Just Enjoy the ride fellas!</marquee><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12468384-111457594241752631?l=blogholics.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Mikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04355529437066863079noreply@blogger.com2